Double M's
Life has always been a huge roller coaster ride.
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by: mira malik

insomaniac


one true friend

i love you zul! you're my one true friend and i will always rmb these wonderful words you told me,
"when you're down think of rainbows and ice creams and good food and good companion with a good lepak place."
"remember you are not alone in this there are others who went thru worst take some time and find contentment ok! be THE BIGGER BITCH IN LIFE OK!"

shits like this

it is really annoying when no matter how hard u try to be righteous and a good person, people always have this mindset that you're not.
I don't drink, I don't club, I don't wear revealing clothes and definitely I don't sleep around with some random guy. I know my limits. I have my pride. But what can I do? Ppl are just judgmental. very exhausting indeed. some of my friends even say that I'm just too nice that's why people took advantage of that. But is it wrong to be nice? Is it wrong to care about others?
I still love my parents, my family. I respect them the way they need to be respected. But people thought that I'm wild. WTF. And they dare come to me and tell me that I have no feelings. I've seen enough of my parents' tears. I've seen hell in my family, but still I can never go by a day without talking or looking at my beautiful parents. The years when my mum shed tears for her children, from one heartbreak to another. I've seen enough. Don't you dare tell me that I got no idea.
That is why every mistakes and problems I have, I try to solve it on my own. I don't want my parents to worry about me. There is already a lot of things on their mind to think about. So certain things I just don't want them to get involved.
what shits you gave me, I patiently accept it and try to improve myself. What more do you want from me? money? fuck. Everyone has a point to start off with their career and I have yet to even finish school. Stop telling me to settle down and get married already. it's still a long way to go. Aren’t you ppl tired? So typical. oh c'mon! I have yet to turn 21 for goodness sake.

matters of the heart

“When you smiled you had my undivided attention. When you laughed you had my urge to laugh with you. When you cried you had my urge to hold you. When you said you loved me, you had my heart forever.”


your critics i'll try much to avoid.

letters to love

mum & dad,
I'm sorry to disappoint you.
I've tried my best, but it ain't good enough.
But i'll promise you that I would do something worthwhile with my life.
Your criticism, I know it's unintentional,
I know you both love me that's why.
I'm taking one step at time,
One day you'll understand,
one day you'll see this daughter of yours all grown-up and successful.
That's a promise.

I love mum & dad.

aint funny like that

from the way you see it, i may not be as serious about life, but pls bear in mind it aint funny when you talk about me as if you know me. just shut the fuck up!
yes. i may appear normal, free from problems. believe me i have my fair bit of problems. handling it slowly one step at a time by myself.